Just thinking about it makes my tummy hurt.

Talking about it with the felliw jc mates makes me feel sort of relieved that 'ah, so they're thinking like that too...!'

I know.
Have always had high expectations of myself, and put more pressure just because I can't let myself down.
Although I know that people around me keep their hopes up for me....all ( Read more... )

While showering realized that its been around 7 months 8 days since I saw Sho with my own eyes.

And probably around slightly less than 2 months since I last saw Aiba-mama/went Keikarou (which I kind of regretted not being in a better condition but another post-Japan day by day trip post another day....need to get down on it!!!).

And it's 2013 wow.

I ( Read more... )

That was what I was worried about all along......what if we're too far apart for too long?

Just, i don't know :/ them are pretty important bunch of people but I just can't face the awkwardness. I don't want it to be awkward.

Although I'm only saying all these because I have an urm, let's say, over-imaginative brain? LOL

Both groups, I meant. I don't ( Read more... )

I guess I do feel a bit lonely :/

Ahhhhh, 17 more days :/
Really miss everyone but I hope there won't be awkwardness lol. At least, I don't think there will be but I guess I need time to get into that mood again hmm >~<

But that's not the main problem now lol.

GP was okay today I guess, sincerely hope i can at least score a B D; my aim is A/B but A ( Read more... )

9 days till it starts.

27 days till it ends.

Can't help but feel anxious and all that shit. Sigh, I can't keep thinking 'what if'.....why don't I just replace these 'what if's with:

'What if I stop thinking about all these, and start studying my ass off right now?'

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And thats how many days before it actually starts.

We've all been struggling (for me anyway) for these last 1.5 year (or even less). Till now I still find it a miracle that I'm able to straight away promote from J1, if that's a thing to be proud of anyway. I'm not proud of it. It just goes to show how obviously I am not prepared to take this on.

But ( Read more... )

So we sent J off today.

Woke up feeling so panicky, Sam wasn't replying and they hadnt finished the book yet.

Finally got to the airport, it's nice to have a travel buddy that you can talk with haha especially on public transport lol. But you get what I mean.

After that...it was just a whole lot of emotional roller coaster (〃ﾟдﾟ〃)

Yeah hahaha.

Lol it ( Read more... )

Just; really felt like posting.

(aka ranting/rambling/whatever hahaha)

Tomorrow (T____T)

So many things happened within such a short period of time, and...honestly? I think I know them more than my (current) school mates ><
The fact that we're in the same fandom means a lot.

I've changed so much.
And I've changed my perspective even more after meeting J ( Read more... )

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I....don't feel like doing homework at all. For this past week I've been trying to wake up early, I swear I woke up at 9 am but when I wake up and check the clock.....it's already 111am.

WTF CBWJSLSKWBIQP)/@1?; /key smash/

:(

Really disappointed with myself sigh.

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